Mummy don't feel guilty
Well this one is straight from the heart. Something I am working through right now and shedding a few tears as I write.
It's time to get back to work , to get a 'real job' . Yes this is completely exciting , a job that is designed for me and that I will have a ball doing. However , the thought of not walking my kiddies through the school gates everyday , making after school snacks , playing blocks with Lachlan , singing twinkle twinkle on repeat with Quinn has really hit home. I can't find the words to describe the longing and missing I already feel.
I read a post today of a Mother saying how she makes sure she is home with her Kids and she wouldn't go back to work for anything. She went on to say how it was her job to be at home and that her children need her and in turn she was being a good Mum. Don't get me wrong I totally agree , our children need us but wow that hit my heart like an arrow. And yes I admit there were tears. I was completely flooded with guilt as I thought oh no I'm making the wrong decision! Are my kids going to be scared? Am I being a bad Mum? What will people think of me? Am I being selfish? So many thoughts and emotions. 'm already being hard enough on myself without having that piled on aswell.
But reality is reality and it is time for me to get back into my career. I love my Children but (don't stop reading because I say this 🙈) they are not my identity! I want to show them it is ok to dream, mpush your capacity and aim higher then the stars! Set yourself goals and work , work hard.
I became a Mum at 18 and for the last 7 years I have been having babies but it is now time for Mummy. It's time to live the dreams of my youth. And those dreams are to hold my sweet ones while providing all I can for them. My dream is to take them to see the globe! o give them opportunities , to help the conquer the World!
Let's be a little easier on each other, we are all going through our own seasons and they are never easy! We are learning , growing and changing. his season is one I have never stepped into and yes I'm as nervous as heck but I'm ready! I'm excited! Let's do this!